That Knowing Feeling

I’ve been using the state lottery as a sort of litmus test where when I check the numbers, I also check in with myself to see how I’m feeling, and what I’m thinking about it. (I suppose guessing cards in a deck would do the same thing, but playing the lottery is more fun, and has more interesting potential surrounding it.)

What I’ve noticed is that for a long time, many issues about power and powerlessness and money would come up whenever it came time to check the ticket, which isn’t at all surprising of course, given the choice of medium. Thoughts would float around in my head, I’d feel anxious or deliberately careless, etc. I was working on it but I hadn’t yet managed to be with the lottery (or the concept of it and what it represented) with any sense of centeredness and peace. But the twice weekly lottery gave me a good way of continuing to work on this stuff, like a mirror in which I could check my progress.

The other day, I slipped into that place of knowingness without knowing it at first! As I started to compare the numbers I knew that we hadn’t won the jackpot, but I knew two of the numbers were going to match, as well as the mega number. The physical act of discovering which numbers they were was sort of superfluous. (We won $9 – woo hoo! LOL.) Continue reading “That Knowing Feeling”

Diverse Opinions on ‘The Secret’

I have not seen ‘The Secret’ although I’ve heard all kinds of things about it of course. Today I ran across a brief article that actually seemed to do a decent job of highlighting differing opinions about ‘The Secret’, plus all the differing perspectives someone can take about the ideas of conscious creation and the Law of Attraction overall.

There were a couple of quotes I really appreciated in the article that tried to clarify points that apparently were not well-covered in the movie. One from a therapist who said, “People start to think that they don’t have to use their free will, that they don’t have to have power anymore, that they don’t have to make choices. They don’t realize they have to do the work. And that’s the conversation I keep having to have with people.” And another from someone who created getting a loan check the next day that had been hung up in various ways, “I think where people are mistaken when they watch it is they think all they have to do is wish and it’s going to happen,” she said. “That wasn’t exactly the case. This is something I had put a lot of energy and time into. What I take from it is not that you just have to wish or hope or think something’s going to happen. … There’s a way it’s going to happen. … When you’re more positive, I think new ideas come to you and you’re able to kind of get through hurdles or over obstacles.”

I’ll reserve sharing any of my own thoughts on the movie itself until after I’ve seen it (what a GOOD idea!). But I have seen a few projects pop up on the web that seem to sponge off The Secret’s current popularity that don’t give me a good vibe (based around creating money.) At the moment, I feel that the whole thing is a mixed bag, although it’s interesting that more reality creation stuff is getting out on a mass scale though!

[tags]the secret, law of attraction, conscious creation, reality creation, metaphysics[/tags]

Recent Dreams

Recently I’ve been having a lot of dreams where I’m acting in an unconscious way in certain situations, but it seems to be situations that I’ve changed my approach to in waking life, and am no longer acting that way. Except back in the dreams. And some are scenarios that I haven’t experienced in physical reality, but I certainly wouldn’t just go along with or try to fit in with, like I have done in my dream.

I’m starting to think of these as subconscious reminders or hangers on. Like maybe there’s still a bit of energy acting according to an old vibe. And since I seem to be remembering these dreams regularly, maybe I’m telling myself to reaffirm the new path/choices while I’m awake to cement them more in place.

So while I was doing this ‘reaffirming’, I realized that they were telling me that I still had some old self-definitions in the closet that it was time to get rid of. Like when you move from a smaller home to a larger home but you’re still unconsciously assuming you have limited space – something like that. I “know” that’s not how it is anymore, but I might subconsciously still be making choices (or limiting my current choices) based on the old criteria or framework.

Dreams like this seem to be a way of helping me clean up old or sloppy thinking. And it’s kind of neat to look at the different TYPES of dreams that I have more consciously. Sort of like eavesdropping on the patterns of my own internal communications.

[tags]dream, dreaming, self help[/tags]